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ungirthed:

white atheists that don’t shut up about it are so annoying like oh that’s nice if you don’t believe in god but did you know a lot of people and a lot of people of color have very cultural ties to religion oh that never crossed your mind i dont care

i dont need ur likes to validate me!!!!

*reblogs self*

chotishayari:

You sound sweet,
like the strawberries that slide down my spine in summer,
tucking seeds in spaces where bone meets blood,
helping me grow from the inside out.

Your voice feels like spring.

this pale plushy boy got himself together and now I have more competition

im looking up pictures of oral cancer to discourage me from smoking as much

"Every morning I sit at the kitchen table over a tall glass of water swallowing pills. (So my hands won’t shake.) (So my heart won’t race.) (So my face won’t thaw.) (So my blood won’t mold.) (So the voices won’t scream.) (So I don’t reach for knives.) (So I keep out of the oven.) (So I eat every morsel.) (So the wine goes bitter.) (So I remember the laundry.) (So I remember to call.) (So I remember the name of each pill.) (So I remember the name of each sickness.) (So I keep my hands inside my hands.) (So the city won’t rattle.) (So I don’t weep on the bus.) (So I don’t wander the guardrail.) (So the flashbacks go quiet.) (So the insomnia sleeps.) (So I don’t jump at car horns.) (So I don’t jump at cat-calls.) (So I don’t jump a bridge.) (So I don’t twitch.) (So I don’t riot.) (So I don’t slit a strange man’s throat.)"

— Jeanann Verlee, Good Girl

rough days

my relationship status is such a mess that I can’t talk to anyone about what’s going on because it requires a 30 minute explanation beforehand and so I’m internalizing. Too much of it.